46.7

We ran out of cordial which is what I was living on. Bleck.

Im going shopping today and getting more. Maybe.

I have also been suicidal the past two nights.

I was doing so well and then BAM. Everything hits me again.

I didn't even get up out of bed to get anything for any sort of self harm so I am proud of myself.

I am also not going to be getting stoned tonight. Maybe. If they have already bought a stick then I will pay them back for it definately. I just don't want all my bad moods to come crashing down with a group of my friends. It would be terrible.

I am trying to drink 2L of water a day. Yesterday I made it too 1800mls or 1.8L for people who don't know mililitres and litres.

I haven't had tea for a while so im going to do that.

I am going to be really upset if I go back to college over 47kg after this weekend.

sooo... alot of shit has happened.

Okay to start off with, my ex girlfriend. I ended up kissing her... twice. >.< *facepalm* I have also made it incredibly obvious that I want to get back with her. Sigh... It's going to be a long few months. She told me she needs to sort stuff out before anything can happen. Im too impatient.

Next, I got down to 46.3kg. Which really isn't low at all. Then I got stoned, had the munchies, hello 49 kilograms.

Found these sites with clicky eggs and stuff that are in my sidebar or will be soon ;) You know what to do.

I am also only eating soup today. I feel terrible.

Plus mum's boyfriend is here and I really just want to sit out the back and have a smoke. But I can't. Woohoo.

Okay I will post a better post when I have lost some weight. But im getting stoned again this friday so who knows. Im not the smartest human being alive.