Don't think im stupid :P

Okay so answering small as a panda's question.

My girlfriend and I have been dating for only four months now. I know that sounds like im jumping ahead but she is the only person who understands what is going through my head and the only person who has ever told me she loves me and meant it. We have talked about names of kids if we had them, what our marriage would be like, she even made a joke proposal that I know she wished was real (when she learned that gay marriage was reckognised in Tasmania). The only thing I said to her when she joked around was that we were too young. In about 8 months we will both be 18 which is definately not too young. I go by the motto of not wasting a day, especially since I have a very weak heart. So yes, hopefully all goes well :)

I apologise for rambling on.

Cooking fail... again xD

First off I want to say thanks to Toomi for commenting :) Im reading your blog now and will follow it when I go back to my dashboard.

Okay now to the cooking fail. I didn't cook the first egg long enough so I decided to just throw the whole thing into the water. Err no Cassy you have done that before and it fails. So yeah I have all the little bits of egg I managed to scavenge in my bowl.

Then I thought what if I put a full egg in the water (cracking it open and dropping it in). Hello boiling water on forearms and a half cooked egg.

Then my next genious idea was to put the mess in the microwave. Needless to say the eggs blew up and now my bowl has bits of egg in it but they look worse than before. They are edible atleast.

I cleaned the microwave and here I am trying to choke down disgusting eggs. When I cook the last egg for tonight I will boil it properly >.>

Also I need to add

-78 cal -6.3g protein -5.3g fat -0.6g carbs -0g Fibre to my total which is now...

Cal: 366 Protein: 28.75g Fat: 17g Carbs: 13.1g Fibre: 10.8g

Still under 400 which is good. I realised I can't go under 200 calories yet. Need to get to a lower weight...

Holy Shit it's the 1st of December

Time really escapes you when you don't sleep at night and sleep during the day. I can't sleep at night it sucks. I either stay up untill the sun comes up then sleep or pass out from exhaustion. Then oversleep...

Great cycle I have going on.

Today my intake so far is:

iceblock -40

I plan on eating only veggies when I get hungry so

broccoli -50

broad beans -16 cal each.

Shame broad beans are so high calorie. They actually taste good cooked.

Lunch I am having:

1 egg -78 (I researched it and its actually 78 for a large egg)

For dinner I will have

Broccoli -52 (I researched this aswell and its another 2 calories higher than I thought O.o)

5 broad beans -80

1 egg -78

Totals: Cal: 288 Protein: 22.45g Fat: 11.7g Carbs: 12.5g Fibre: 10.8g

Tomorrow I might just mung out on broad beans. High protein and fibre, low fat but also high carbs but it's hard to do the whole low carb thing if you don't eat meat since meat has virtually no carbs >.>

I need to start eating 20g dietry fibre a day again. My errr organs arent working as per usual lets just say.

Plus I have been looking at my skin and it is terribly dry. It's horrible.

HURRY UP MULTI-VITAMINS!!!

And last note: If you have a blog and have followed mine can you comment if I haven't joined it? It's hard to sift through everyone to find new followers with blogs. :)

And 16 followers which is amazing :)

Im also not eating junk because pot may be involved in the future and alchohol may be aswell. Hello munchies and soft drink xD I need to keep the junk away till the binging >.>

Which i won't care about untill I put on weight because I will be off my face...