wow

Did I get a lot of shit on christmas? Yes, yes I did. By shit I mean stuff I needed and have wanted to buy myself. Including a hair straightener and a ruler length eyeliner. I desperately needed eyeliner.

Food-wise I got:

A gingerbread house - im going to say it's about 800 cal

A large box of favorites - 1479 calories for the entire box (I could eat the entire thing and still be technically starving myself, this shows that the whole I idea of calories and losing weight is fucked)

A big lollypop type thing with 13 lollypops inside - 498 for all of them

And last but not least this big tower with five levels:

Level 1 - 100 g jelly beans - 387 calories for all

Level 2 - 65g Mini marshmallows - 53 calories for all

Level 3 - 185g fruit drops - 714 calories for all

Level 4 - 230g Caramel Toffees - 942 calories for all

Level 5 -140g choc chip cookies - 704 calories for all

That's a total of 5577 calories! They want to make me fat and unhealthy xD

Im not going to be weighing myself for at least a month because in Victoria (I remember from experience) it is very hard to get time alone to weigh myself and the scale is really really noisy. I going to go by how my body looks, the fatter it looks the more I work out. I know Body Dysmorphic Disorder will play an issue but three weeks (which is the actual time I will be there for) isn't enough time to do too much damage.

Im also going to start writing a book, about my rise to... well being in a band and known. It's something I have to achieve before I die and I am going to. The being known part, the book I can live without. I do plan to publish a book but nothing along that line.

I leave tomorrow to go somewhere for two days, the whole thing is a suprise and im not happy. I hate suprises. I shall see when I get there. Im going to bring a book so I can blog when I get back.

Thank you for your comments. I apologise because I don't have the energy to comment on them and I do feel bad for once.

It's strange, people behind a computer screen get more emotion out of me than loved ones. More sad than strange but im going to stick with strange.

Stay well everyone and achieve your goals.